The Test of Time and Distance

Destiny at times plays trick on humans. Definitely, not to fool us but to test us on something – our endurance, the intensity of love that is innate in us and the depth of our faith in the Supreme Being. The things we never anticipate to come too soon are sometimes drawing abruptly and enticing us to dream and wish that it won’t come to pass right before our very eyes. There are battles that no matter how hard we try to lock them up in the closet of life will always chase us time and again. Oh, life since day one is always surprising! It exposes us to circumstances that are inconceivable to bear and yet develops us into the kind of creatures our Master has designed us to be. If we would only learn to embrace life exactly the way it is. It’s almost beyond my will to update this blog as it will only allow me to figure out the extent of pain the situation has carved in my heart. I have to be all right on the outside but the truth to the matter is that I’ll never be okay as far as my personal feeling is concerned. And yet, I have to let God inspire me by His grace. My faith encourages me to draw strength from the Lord, the shepherd of my soul. My beloved husband Sim left for the Republic of Seychelles. I tried everything I can so I wouldn’t be confined in the thought that he will be away in the next twelve months. There is this feeling that makes my system half-paralyzed. A wind of incompleteness has blown on me the moment I stepped out of the airport. To combat every tinge of negativity that lures me, I had to accept a new job in the capital city. I had to force myself to temporarily shake off the great things and memories I have with my dear husband. Others might say that one year is as fast as the waves of the sea but for a wife like me who considers my husband as the other half of myself, one year is like a thousand years…