Back in Each Other's Arms

After waiting enthusiastically for almost two hours and queuing up patiently at the airport’s Arrival Station, finally, a familiar figure who swept me off my feet 11 years ago came out in the open. Oh, a feeling of relief and inner peace overwhelmed me! My dearest Sim was right before my very eyes, he’s back… praise God for His overflowing grace. The eight months separation was as if an unwanted dream… and for now thinking about it makes me wince, I’m hoping and praying that it will not pass our way again. An echoing truth kept ringing in my heart, “it’s not God’s design that a husband and wife live apart from each other”. The Bible encourages us to mimic the married life of God’s people whom he had used mightily in the different eras of history. I can say that I am now a “renewed” wife. Renewed in the sense that I have a clearer direction in the way I partner with my husband Sim. And I believe that the balancing act comes from the Lord who stays in the middle of our marriage. To God be the glory!

 

The Test of Time and Distance

Destiny at times plays trick on humans. Definitely, not to fool us but to test us on something – our endurance, the intensity of love that is innate in us and the depth of our faith in the Supreme Being. The things we never anticipate to come too soon are sometimes drawing abruptly and enticing us to dream and wish that it won’t come to pass right before our very eyes. There are battles that no matter how hard we try to lock them up in the closet of life will always chase us time and again. Oh, life since day one is always surprising! It exposes us to circumstances that are inconceivable to bear and yet develops us into the kind of creatures our Master has designed us to be. If we would only learn to embrace life exactly the way it is. It’s almost beyond my will to update this blog as it will only allow me to figure out the extent of pain the situation has carved in my heart. I have to be all right on the outside but the truth to the matter is that I’ll never be okay as far as my personal feeling is concerned. And yet, I have to let God inspire me by His grace. My faith encourages me to draw strength from the Lord, the shepherd of my soul. My beloved husband Sim left for the Republic of Seychelles. I tried everything I can so I wouldn’t be confined in the thought that he will be away in the next twelve months. There is this feeling that makes my system half-paralyzed. A wind of incompleteness has blown on me the moment I stepped out of the airport. To combat every tinge of negativity that lures me, I had to accept a new job in the capital city. I had to force myself to temporarily shake off the great things and memories I have with my dear husband. Others might say that one year is as fast as the waves of the sea but for a wife like me who considers my husband as the other half of myself, one year is like a thousand years…

Bitter-Sweet Moments

Two hearts who adore each other dearly are not meant to “separate physically”… It’s really an issue of idealism. Truth to the matter is that there are quite a number of agreeable and justifiable reasons why things come to pass the other way around.

After going through a battery of mind boggling arguments, my husband subtly persuaded me to finally bestow him my blessing of “yes”… Yes, he may go for a one-year job assignment to the secluded yet awe-inspiring Fregate Island Private, one of the 115 islands of the Republic of Seychelles. Things just rolled up drastically until I found myself immersed in tears and agony as I bid adieu to my Sim at the airport. The first night of adjustment was the hardest to combat… I was imprisoned by an impalpable feeling of wanting to see him point blank. I kept playing this question in mind, “how can life get back to normal without him by my side?”. I have never figured out how am gonna go on with my daily routine … it’s as if a significant part of my physical system was missing. And yet, I have to hold on and grip God’s grace and presence to cover me.

When I got back to work, my boss offered me a new and higher position in our head office. After weighing things up, I was able to answer “yes”. Things happened abruptly and I was indeed caught by surprise. I wish I could vividly describe everything to my husband… my first day at work, the deadlines I have to beat, the pressures that entangle me but I am constrained by time and resources. At times that I feel so alone, I seek God’s comfort and His presence brings a fresh breeze of hope … a hope that God cares for me in every situation and a hope that someday Sim and I will be together again…